Oh, Hello There, August!

I know it was quite a long time since I last updated this blog. I am very busy and there’s just too many things on my plate right now that I really don’t have any free time and energy left to write an update. But at the back of my head, I have made quite a number of ideas and plans for what kind of topic I should write and post here. Once I got some free time and I’m in the mood to write, I will definitely update this blog with all the things I want to write and say.

So anyway, it’s already August, my birth month and blimey, there are quite tons of things that happened to me. There are still uncertainties and sometimes I feel I am just floating (you know, without direction), top with all the goals I’ve set but currently without plans. Remember, a goal without a plan is just a dream. The future is quite uncertain and I’m not quite sure where are we all going. It kinda sucks though now, to be honest. But if I will let other people dictate the direction of my life, I guess I am bound to be disappointed. I’m turning 32 next week. I am old. I sometimes want to settle down and have a family of my own, but most of times I feel that I don’t want it (because to be honest, at the current situation of the world, I feel it will be cruel to bring a child now, given how bad we are at our finances but we are both currently improving it). Anyway, I know I have to trust God with the process and pause for a while because sometimes I feel I’m overthinking about things that I have no control.

So for now, maybe I should stop and pause and let the days pass me by.